kein gluck

I've been working  more lately, but it's not my work that is getting me tired, is the routine. i fell like i don't have time for myself and I can't help but wonder why i fell so lonely too. well, i guess i know, altough i won't tell here.

i feel like i wanna start all over again... i feel... "i'm here", would be my words and i'd scream them. why i want something that i can't have knowing that i can't have and blaming myself for wanting it.

i'm not making sense right now.  i'm a mess. i'll be back later.